9 Week Update

Well I'm on day 4 with no bleeding, so I'm keeping my fingers crossed that it remains that way and that the hemmorhage is already gone. I just wish they'd do another ultrasound to tell me once and for all if it's gone! We have 1 week until the next appointment at which we hope to hear the heartbeat. I can't wait!
However, there is one thing that also happens in 1 week that I'm NOT looking forward to and that is starting back to school :( I just feel very unmotivated to start back after such an emotional rollercoaster of a summer. I feel like I've been worried most of my summer about this baby and whether he/she would make it. I do feel better about things since my last appointment though. I feel like since I can see my belly growing a little that it's a good sign. I do think that after hearing the heartbeat again I will be much more at ease - especially since the end of this month will be the end of the first trimester. We plan to tell the families in about a week and a half and I'm about ready to burst from keeping it a secret! I also feel terrible for seeming "lazy" lately when it comes to helping our parents move things or helping my co-workers at school... for example, when I was up at school today, the secretary told me that a box of our copies had arrived from the print shop and I should take them up to the room. So I proceeded to push the box a little to see how heavy it was and it would've been a struggle to lift even without being pregnant! Not wanting to risk hurting anything (and after the particularly stern warning from the doctor last time about not lifting heavy things) I left the box where it was. Later on, the secretary (who's smaller than me) came up with the heavy box in her arms to drop off in my room! So I feel bad that people don't know WHY I can't do these things right now. I'm not sure yet when I will tell my co-workers, probably right after we tell our families, but I don't want my students and parents to know right away, so I'll have to make that clear to the staff. I think I'll wait until after Labor Day to tell them, then they can't try and pull kids out of my class just 'cause I'll have to go on maternity leave during the year. I know some parents get mad about that!
Anyway, this has been a long, rambling post, but I've had a lot of rambling thoughts lately that I wanted to get out, so I can share them with future readers. I'll probably wait until after my appointment next week to post again since I'll be busy at school getting things ready for the next several days. Until then... I'll keep praying for littlekins to grow bigger and stronger every day!